Meatloaf said two out of three aint bad...I think it is just for different reasons....

To love someone and have them want you and for them not to be in the position to have you is the hardest place to be.  The one person I have loved so far, I still see in my head everyday. I never realised how far under my skin they were, but they are still there.

Hardest thing is to love someone, have them love you and nothing much more can come of it. I was a fool to go there. That's what you get when you think with your heart.

I try to maintain that I am big and strong, but I just need a friend to hold me close and not care that I am crying my eyes out or just to understand why I am like this.

Quote of the day: I heart you too.

Thought of the day: I shouldn't like you, you're no good.

Hug of the day: C.

CLA x

Things happen for a reason...don't they?

I sometimes wonder if life separates you from people for a reason.  I have lost touch with a lot of friends, but also managed to get back in touch with others...one thing I do know is that everyone of the friends that have been in my life and/or still in it, they have left a little piece of themselves within my heart.

Before you all start to reach for the sick bag, I will only ask you to reflect on the people you have in your life (whether good and bad) and think about how they have managed to shape you in some way or other. It just astonishes me how one person can shape and mould you in a way you never thought possible.

Quote of the day: You are a beautiful femme.  *swoon*

Thought of the day: I would so do you.

Hug of the day: Everyone I saw tonight.

CLA x

The deede is done, I am feeling better about it.

Got biology exam on Monday and I will cram all weekend. *grin*

Friends coming over tonight and I have no eggs so can't make a lemon merignue.  And I can't spell it. *lol*

CLA x

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

<instrumental interlude>

Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dynA9-yqDqw

I feel as though I am stuck in a really small cubby-hole and everyone keeps adding stuff to make the space smaller and smaller.  I don't like people organising stuff behind my back cos they don't know how I will react.

I have tried to end things but she keeps making me feel bad and I just can't.

How comes only one person understands that this can't be?  How can only one person know that my head is screwed up and I just can't have someone at the moment?

I feel so lost and torn.

Why do I have to be a grown up?

:o(

CLA x